1st day of Nov'12

11月的第一天,该是美好的... but我miss掉了那机会...
脑海想着的和实际的行动竟然背倒而行... Oh God..>.<

我输给了勇气, 一再的提醒自己要好好地把握...
可每次都没珍惜... 真的有够笨的
笨到直接撞墙算了啦 ... T.T

Miss掉的是否还会出现？应该有的吧...? 只要keep the faith,
and believe it...
I'm sure that 2nd chance will be given soon...

Fighting Jasmine~ ~ ~ Aza Aza...

怪怪的Monday

有点点的心情低落...不知为何事
最近老是觉得工作很没有challenging...

When the time we voiced out our opinion, ends up our boss will said: 是酱的咯，习惯就好 =.=
真的什么都习惯就好吗？不见得...!!! 怪不得公司一直都drop sales，全部人都不合作
有些还倚老卖老的，以为是公司的元老就不敢的对您动刀吗??? 只能怪我们的CEO,纵容生产部的人...

怎么最近老是觉得事情怎么都不顺心...???
呼...郁闷的咧

Noticed Someone

进入第三个月的来回新柔，说真的：蛮累人的。应该算是进入状况吧...
最近不知为何的老是注意起一个人
他，不像一般的会看手机
也不像一般的会吱咋吵闹
他，总是一个人静静的等待

我们每天见面两次（早和晚），都会被他挑起我的注意力...够力鸟咯
一星期5天，total 10次见面...
可最近，我都会提早的出门，避免与他相见...coz I found out that some of the time, I will miss him during my work,  but what am I doing for this???
Even can't explain on it... huhuhuhu

I don't think he will notice on me, and what the hell I'm missing him neh? Stop thinking Stop thinking... focus on your work pls~ ~

Hmm... Can I just ask him: hey guy, can I know your name? 
Oh no, what's wrong with me??? Am I illness?

第五个星期

已经是第五个星期...
生活还是一样的: --> 早上5点出门，傍晚7.30pm回家
还是一样的单身...
到底是好还是不好？

曾经对身边的朋友们大喊：单身万岁！！！
可最近竟然羡慕起有伴侣的亲们... 这什么会事啊...???
还是该说：我累了，想找个人来依靠下吧...
可以找谁？有酱容易吗？缘分这东西...
好像离我很远乜...

呃，其实最近好像是喜欢上一个人...
可不确定那是否喜欢的感觉... 很抽象咧
自己也搞不懂， 反正顺其自然咯
不想强迫，因我知道自己不是他所喜欢的类型...

Week 4th Status

进入第四星期，应该是进入佳境...
But...好似依然逗留在半装态

首先，在这星期要进行减肥计划...
S$3千多的产品，势必要把那一团团肥油给消除掉！！
果然必须要意志力坚定，加上运动...
相信应该可以达到效果

第二，不知不觉将要满4个月在这公司
到底老板是要confirm的吗？又不找人谈谈的, 是要怎样哦？
hmm... I'm planned that once get the confirmation, wanna to buy myself a new phone (Galaxy Note)
Had aim it long time ago, until SIII lauched also can't get myself a new phone...
Already asked boss, but until today yet to receive any info from HR...
Sould I ask him again? Or shall I just wait for another month?

3星期的新生活

今天第13天来回，每天周旋于新山与新国...早出晚归，就为了那么点的钱...值得吗？
实话说：这的确很累的，平均每晚睡4小时，几乎清晨0445就得出发到custom...
Although it's took 7min drive from home to custom, but still needed jam for bus waiting.

Yesterday knew that our beloved sister Ang will started to work in SG coming Aug. She suggested to group few person for carpool instead of taking bus, coz it's sweating when you arrive your work place :P
But where to get free parking in SG? Some more really need to familiar with SG road to avoid any ERP... Is that worth to drive in everyday? Since we got no SG car & have to drive in Msia car, cost S$ 20/entry need to paid, but how's parking fees? Do we really get the free parking like Msia?
Headache question...

In this 3 weeks travelled, realised that a lot of people same as us... Travel to SG in earlier morning just to earn the high exchange rate in RM.
Wondered why SG room rental is much more higher than others? A common room can cost up until S$900 without air-cond (room sharing). This is the reason why I had move back to JB & started to travel in out SG... Tiring... =.=
In fact, we get our freedom at all... Least get a whole unit with cost RM300 without landlord, we can cook ourself or do whatever we want. You can't do or act like this in SG coz your landlord will look over you...

It's worth to exchange our freedom & lifestyle... so keep on travel between jb & sg...
Gambatah...

10 years

常在想，有爸爸的感觉真好...
Time has pass... 10 years without you dad...
Our life still keep going on... but somehow, miss you a lot..

看见身边有爸爸的画面，很羡慕...
If you're still alive, what we will do? Are we going have fun like them?
What will be happen in our life?
In this 10 years, missing you a lot...

I guess I'm too tired to be alone...
Dad, wanted to tell... I never regret to had a dad like you...
Dad, rest in peace...
Pray in precious name in Jesus, Amen!

承重的寂寞

今晚依然孤单的一个人，但不知点解今晚特别想揾人倾一倾...很想有个人能够让我抱一包...
是寂寞的缘故吗？不是... 是工作, 心情, 需要痛痛切切地倾泻出来...
好似有也压着你嘎...
做个深呼吸...!!! 依然无法疏解...

大胆到在office写博志... 看见几乎所有同事们都归家了，竟然还在逗留公司...
唉，似时候归家...

6/6/2012 @Kallang Bahru

还是清醒的凌晨

凌晨3点，还不甘愿的去睡...~~
是为了什么？真的不晓得...有种想要哭的感觉
6月1号--> 搬进了与妹妹同住，可能有点的不习惯...还好是周六不必上班
与无理的房东吵了，还好只是租到这月尾... 不然真的会疯掉！！


其实我并不喜欢搬家...这感觉很不好，无法适应的感觉
7月起将会开始新的生活, 开始每天的来回... 应该会很累吧？所有人都这样的认为的
可就是没办法，必须这样做这样的选择... 真诚的希望我可以尽快地还清所有的债务...
压力很大，必须坚强的撑下去, 没人会帮我分担..


最近最看这部剧 <我可能不会爱你> 
不错看下，蛮真实的一部剧...

Hardship SG Life!!!

Started on 1st May, my rental had increased become $450/month... phew~~~ 
Quite expensive & heart is bleeding!!! I'm considering whether to move back JB & travel daily to SG work...
at least it will be save some money I guess, some more it will be enjoyable during weekends.
But there is some consequence: Yes, you can save money but it will cause you tired, might affected your performance, your health & timing... 
2nd: No, it won't save much... as you travelling, those hiding cost you ever can included in... 
So, which one should I take? 
Well, still got another 2 months to fight for my confirmation... I think I should be get my confirmation before make any decision. However, don't just think / dream, indeed make it happen... said by Devon
Ya, it only suffer for 5 days & you can get your freedom in JB, at least it's enjoyable instead of staying SG & wasted your time. 
Always to remind myself: there were a lot of things that I needed to complete it... I must make it by myself unless I find a rich guy ... :P 

Jas Big Day Celebration ~(^0^)~

This is 1st year to celebrated birthday at SG... 

It's just a simple & normal for this big day. 

In the afternoon, had a lunch with my dear younger sister at HongGuo, Bugis Junction (a chinese dishes)

Those dishes taste quite ok so far... but the services not really prefect... 

Few hour we took for the lunch, enjoying & chatting.. I like those moment, really peaceful.

After lunch, we went to Bugis Streets to buy some gifts to mother. As I will be back to Ipoh on coming Friday night. We had bought a pair of shoe, 5pcs of big plastic bags (requested by mother)..

Finish shopping, we bought some of the stuffs then we go to Starbucks Coffee shop. She bought me a small chocolate cake, it's nice & delicious, my favorite cake: Chocolate Moose cake

I've make a wish during candle blow, I wish that those wishes would come true...

Today it's another way to celebrated the birthday with simple & affordable with peaceful. I do enjoyed this moment with my only younger sister. No matter how she treat me at past, it's doesn't matter... Just leave it behind & enjoyed it. Hopefully the wishes will come true... 

  

Time Counting~~

Few more hours is my 26th birthday. 

This year guess will alone to celebrate it myself...

sound pity..~~ but no choice, I've choose to stay in here... 

Still remember, last year mother was come over JB & she treated me with a good meal..

In early morning, had a breakfast before we went to shopping. Both of us watched a movie... 

The next day was my 1st time to took bus to SG. (my 1st experience with mother also)

To visited our lovely sister in SG after she came to work about 5 mths.

We have no idea where to go... even looks for a vegetarian shop / stall also hard...

After we met Vicky, end up we went to Sentosa... This really great moment with mother..

At this moment, I don't is there any surprise for my birthday...

But I guess tomorrow will be bored & lonely again for my day. 

I'm counting the days (6 days to go), I can back to my home sweet home on Friday... 

Blessed for my 26th birthday. Although lonely, still have to say: HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me, Jasmine Lee WT

祝我生日快乐  

失眠夜~2

4月19日
再一次失眠当中...正确来说应经有一星期失眠
在这个时刻是最容易回想点点滴滴 ~ 当初的选择已无法挽回
虽然一直提醒自己，但每当夜深人静的时候依然会责怪自己...质疑自己

努力面对这一切，就算几辛苦，几委屈都要去面对与解决

End 23/3 & New Journey 26/3~ ~

Few min before was my last day contribute services of 1st company in spore...
refresh back the past 3 mths, would there something can be learned?
Ans is: perhaps...~~~

Hmm... nothing can do for everyday...
day by day i was wasting my time in office, surfing net etc...
what else i can do??? hmm...~~ seems nothing...
ya, there's really nothing that i can do for it...
keep on sitting in office from the time being...
whatever...it's over right now

Going to have another challenging task waiting for me started Monday.
there is no extra time for me to take a rest before starting new journey...
i must get well prepared for the time being...to fight for my needs, my desires...

Gonna make myself in this new journey with challenging, colouring of my life...
always do remember:
Everyday is an opportunity to you to learn & to absorb whatever you can...Don't ever miss the chances that given by others.
Chances are only for those who's in well prepared!!!
gambateh~~~Aza fighting ^_^

You are meant to have an Amazing Life~

Just received a call from mummy...
knowing that yesterday in her big day,no one else was with her to celebrate.
Again my tears out

Sorry mom, coming day by day...I will work hard for you...
Mom, please take care of yourself...
Please wait for me...

Mom, forgive me for every i've done wrongly...
I'll try my best fix it back as soon as I can...
Hopefully in this year can fix it back to normal...

Always to tell myself in everyday even single minute...
I can fix it...overcome it all the result...
I meant to be in good life instead to struggle it
I meant to be give more happiness to my mom

A quote from The Power:
You are meant to have an amazing life!

Yes, I will have an amazing life!!!

I meant to have everything I love & desire.
My new career, relationship with family & friends are filled in happiness.
I meant to have money that needed to live a full; I meant to be living with my dreams!
Whatever I would love to be, I meant to be it!

Mummy's Birthday

Today is my mummy's birthday...
But yet I'm still not call her for the greeting...

I know that I should do it but yet wanna to escape it...
dunno why got such feeling at all...?
Maybe got too much things hiding from mummy...

Mummy,

Please forgive me this year didn't call you for the birthday wish.
I promised that this year will be more hardworking to earn alot of money to give you...
Wouldn't let you suffer from it...

Thanks mom for everything that you has done...
There were appreciation from my heart and yet to telling you all of this...

Mummy, happy birthday to you...
please do stay health & happy always...
wait for me to settle off all the things in this year...

From: your eldest daughter

心情写照

3月10日, 天晴

第一次~
第一次同一位相识超过十年的朋友行街睇戏吃饭~
睇戏
亦是第一次去的戏院 (Cathay Cinema)

开头几无聊下的电影...

可以算得不错，感觉still ok geh...
但是feel到他很紧张咧...
辛苦他了... ~^.^~

突然间很想揾人yum cha纯聊天...

When you’re gone

When you’re gone

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cried

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

When you walk away

I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

The face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day

And make it OK

I miss you

I've never felt this way before

Everything that I do

Reminds me of you

And the things you left

They lie on the floor

And they smile just like you

I love the things that you do

Do you see how much I need you right now?

All I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I do I give my heart and soul

I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me

Dear, I really missed you...